Do over

Do you ever wish for a do over with your life?

Wonder how you go to the place you are today?

I suppose everyone's life is different from how they invisioned it in some ways. I have just been wondering lately about the little descisions we make along the way that lead to massive impacts to our life path. Sometimes I wish I could go back to those moments and take a mullegan. A do over.

But then, what would I have missed?

Maybe it's like trying to "have your cake and eat it too" or "the grass is always greener on the other side".

I'm not saying I don't love my life. I have so many blessings.

Today I feel like it is me I don't like. That the events and choices along the way shaped me into something I don't want to be.

Strange.

I am a perfectionist, a very driven people pleaser who doesn't want to let anyone down. Doesn't want to fall short of someone's expectionations of me. Riggid. Hard. Wants to climb the ladder, achieve and conquer everything. Passionate. Smiling with a heavy spirit, because it is again what is expected. A care-taker. But that's not the me I was always going to be.

Is this me? Or did the me I could have been get squeezed out, squashed by those little choices I have made. Little by little until me wasn't me anymore. I don't feel like I'm a fake person. I just feel like I am not me...the me I am supposed to be.

I think the real me was supposed to be free. Passionate. A creative spirit without limitations and bounds. Smiling from a deep and light place. A dreamer. Unaffected by the pressure of society & life. Someone who loved like crazy, like it was the only thing that mattered. Because it is.

Maybe I need little of both "me's". I need to become the me I want to be.

I want a tomorrow that doesn't look like yesterday. So what are you going to do? When the rubber meets the road Katie, when you can't have a do over and things are what they are?

Are you going to fight like hell for everything that matters? Give up everything that doesn't? Do something drastic, or stay static?

2Katie Designs

Chances are if you know me, you know my BFF Katie Tillman as well. Call us Thelma and Louise, Twiddle Dee and Twiddle Dumb, Thing 1 and Thing 2, Dumb & Dumber...you get the point. When you get one, most of the time you get the other too. We work together professionally, our families hang out together, we scrapbooking together and now after years of dreaming and discussing we are entrepreneurs together with the birth of 2Katie Designs. Our friendship began with scrapbooking and I can't wait to see where it takes us in this new venture.

We didn't start this business because we think we are rock stars (that's just fact -j!), but because we see a lack of class options and scrapbooking events in our area of the woods. We hope to share or love and cultivate more scrapbookers to get into the hobby. It's a hobby that records our families legacy and it's an awesome creative outlet for us.

The business side of things has taken weeks but it feels good to be official and actually teaching our "students". We are glad to have all of you along for the ride with us. Join is at www.facebook.com/2katiedesigns or at http://www.2katiedesigns.com/.

Mother’s Day

Do you here the angels doing an AAAAWWWWWW from heaven? They are at my house. A day just for me!!! And all the other Mama’s out there too I suppose. One of the things I wanted most for Mother’s Day was help cleaning the house – not the “picking up” kind of clean but the scrubbing, organizing, nitty gritty cleaning kind of help. Since I have gone to working more full time it is hard to manage this task. So Jon and Kaia chipped in. Kaia made my little heart flutter by organizing my shoes for me. This is the perfect task for her Obsessive Compulsiveness. All my shoes are perfectly stacked, matched and clipped together with clothespins. It is fun for her to tackle the task and I get to reap the benefits…I promise to try to keep up with it Kai!

I love this girl, and being her mommy is the joy of my life. She is growing up before my eyes, changing everyday. I love who she is – a creative, direct, unconventional, animal loving, sweet child.

Pink Hair

Pink Hair
…yes I colored my hair pink. Well I added hot pink Peekaboo highlights in a few select locations on my head. I guess I am known to drastically change my hair from season to season but this is a new one for me. I needed to embrace my fleeting youth I suppose and what better way that to do something pure fun! So I chopped it off into a cutie bob, went blond and added the pink.
I am also still playing with making different hair things and such. As you can see I made this LARGE flower for my hair and put in on a ribbon. I wore it to a scrapbooking class I was teaching since our colors are black and white and teal so it went perfectly. Makes me smile.

Foods I love

It’s no new news that I am a foodie. I love all sorts of foods – included in my hobbies are cooking, entertaining & trying new restaraunts so I thought it time to share some of those favorites…drum roll please. Now Katie’s top fav foods (from restaraunts) in no particular order please.
Salt & lime Chips, Table Mesa, Bentonville
Pork Carnitas with Pineapple Pico, Table Mesa, Bentonville
Bread Pudding, Famous Dave’s, Rogers
Fried Bowtie pasta & Spinach dip, Copeland’s, Rogers
Street Tacos, Yolos, Las Vegas
Spanish Fried w/ Onions & Jalapenos (w/ Ranch) , Ron’s, Bentonville
Tamale Cakes, Cheesecake Factory
Sticky Rice with Coconut Ice Cream & Mangos, Taste of Tai, Bentonville
Mongolian Beef, PF Chang’s
Cotton Candy Ice Cream with Reesies pieces

Things I love

In trying to practice an attitude of more gratitude I have been pondering a lot on the things I love. Here are some of my favorites. Sorta my verion of Oprah's favorite things, except I am not giving any of them away : (

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Easter

All the Easter fun has come and gone but I would still like to share. A few of the things that made Easter great for me this year.

Decorating...I had so much fun bringing "Spring" into our new house. Literaly there was snow on the ground and I was willing Spring to Spring already with all the bright colors and decor. I couldn't take another flake falling from the sky. Here are some of my favorite Easter decor ideas.

Of course we also colored eggs which is in everyone's Easter traditions I think. We chose a tye die kit since Kaia is almost 9 she can handle something a little more advanced. Well it wasn't a "kit" really just a few baggies to put the eggs in to smear around the color but we still had a great time even though we had egg dye stains on our hands for 2 days afterwards.

We also had perfect weather on Easter Day and it was a great day to be our on the McMullen "farm". Kaia and all her cousins had an egg hunt with more eggs than they could fit into their baskets! Great food, family and fun sums it all up! We even enjoyed a walk down to the creek and saw some of the new critters on the farm.